The Story of My Life – Episode 18

That was when I realize the reality of what she saying and the condition she was in. Amina was sick and was dying slowly.Every minute for her was a countdown to death. Imagine how you’d feel if you knew your own time of death and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it?
When she gave me the news, I couldn’t say anything any longer.
She just sat there looking me in the eye with tears coming down from hers. She smiled while talking to me. It was as if she had accepted her fate and was ready for what was coming. It caught me like a news flash. I mean, how could such an adorable person like Amina be dealing with a life-threatening condition?
This world indeed is not fair. Those who don’t deserve to die are the ones dying every day while murderers and high profile criminals continue walking around the streets, endangering people’s life. But who am I to judge, who am I to determine who lives and who dies? But I can’t just accept the death sentence with Amina. There must be a way out of it. There has to be a way!
As if she knew what I was thinking, she took my hand and rubbed her soft warm fingers over it.
“There is nothing anyone can do Ben, I am a doctor and I know what I’m talking about. I have accepted it.  We are all going to die someday anyway, so if my own time is here, I just have to embrace it.“ She said.
I couldn’t believe she was actually saying that. This was one moment when I wanted everything to be a dream. I wanted to wake up from this nightmare. I can’t bear to lose her. No. I can’t. I love her.
“Amina, I thought this was only reserved for the movies but I mean it when I say I am going to keep you alive…” I said.
She started laughing at me, as if I had no idea what I was talking about. “keep her alive” really? Did I really say that? That just shows how confused and frustrated as I was. I didn’t even know what I was saying.
When she was done laughing at me, she stood up, picked her bag and said goodbye. And just like that, she began to walk away. It was that moment I noticed why she was always careful with her steps. Back at the hospital, I always starred at her when she walked. She walked slowly all the time. Now I understood, she was being careful. She was trying to avoid getting stressed up. That was definitely not good for her health.
I have to figure out a way to help her.
I had already decided I was going to stand by her through this. The only option I had was to make sure she lived the rest of her life as a happy woman. Anger, pain and stress wouldn’t do her any good now.
I got up from my seat and ran towards her.
I said: “If I can’t keep you alive, at least believe in miracles. Miracles do happen if you have faith.” I said.
“Ben, I’m a Christian and I always will be. However, we sometimes we should just let God take control of everything. If it’s my time, let it be. If it’s not, then we can hope for a miracle, it’s all up to God.” She said.
Amina was a weird Christian, I thought to myself. She didn’t want to be consoled. I found sense in what she was saying but her perception of the ways of God was just beyond my understanding.
As we stood there talking, I saw a car that looked like Roland’s. It came right at us and parked. Well, I was right, it was him. What surprised was Paula, who was seated in car with him.
Roland rolled down the glass of his vehicle and spoke to us. “Ben, I see you are doing fine with this doctor. Amina, how are you anyway?”
Amina was getting upset. You could tell that Roland’s presence was getting her worked up, I could see she was panting. I tried getting her away from the scene but Roland kept ranting and it was as if he knew Amina’s condition. “You know you are not supposed to get angry baby girl. It is really not good for your health, you know.”
This was getting too much. I still didn’t know what relationship existed between Roland and Amina but I needed to get her away from him before anything nasty happened. She was getting more furious by the minute and her panting was very visible. She was really angry.

watch out for episode 19